April 20, 1998

Di--

I've got the most unique relationship w/ Eli out of me & my two friends. He hates Tess & Francine because, excuse my language, they love to piss him off, and do so frequently.

My relationship is entirely different. I've done nothing to aggravate him, never talk to him, so --ta-da-- he doesn't know I'm alive! Or maybe he does & just doesn't care. This IS Eli Klein we're talking about after all!

Francine-- hates Eli
Eli-- hates Francine

Tess-- doesn't care, hates him at one time or another
Eli-- hates Tess

Vanessa-- is madly in love with Eli
Eli-- doesn't know she's alive

At least Eli knows Fran & Steph ARE alive. (Not that they care, and even though it's because they annoy the crap out of him).

The good thing is that Jerkface (very good-looking Jerkface) has probably a decent opinion of me since I never bother him & he never bothers me.

On to a not-involving-Gorgeous-subject, I'm gradually becoming more grateful for having such awesome (best) friends. I mean, in their not-so-showing-it ways, I feel that they really care about me. Fran in particular has this trait I really hate, yet love, at the same time: She can ALWAYS make me laugh, especially when I'm really sad. I guess that's why I like her so much. She really cares about me, and I in turn would do anything for her. I'm really lucky to have her as a best friend, and even though she can be annoying, as I'm sure I often am, that's part of her charm. With the exception of Tess (because I don't like one more than the other), I don't think there's a better best friend in the whole world.

Tess. Sorry if this sounds sick, but I'm crazy about her. Not the way I am about you-know-who, though. Like I said about Fran, you couldn't find a more perfect friend.

She's friendly, caring, warm, inspiring, and at all the right times. She isn't as funny as Fran, but I'm glad she's not. It's part of why I like her so much. I could go on and on, but I've painted a crystal clear picture of the luckiest girl in the world-- me. Why? Because I've got the best friends.

A lot of times, I feel I don't deserve them. I know I'm not exactly the world's greatest friend. Far from it.

I don't understand. Why do they need me? Francine's the funny one, and Tess's the logical, caring one. I'm none. So why am I still around? My friendship qualities are not exactly ones to be admired. I'm rude, mean, sarcastic. So why, WHY, do I have the two best friends in the whole world?