February 7, 1998

Dear Di,

I just... cannot believe it. It's so weird. I love it! You obviously don't have a clue as to what's going on, do you, Di? Well, let me explain myself.

[The "Titanic" song] just came on a few minutes ago. At the beginning of the song, I usually picture Eli & me just entering onto the deck at sunset, by ourselves. He helps me climb up on the rail, where Rose and Jack had THEIR kiss(es).

But I couldn't, during the song, picture WHO it was kissing me, WHO was holding my hand... same as Rose and Jack. WHO knocked me down on the playground... when in all the other times I knew it was him. Eli, I thought slowly, hazily. Eli... who? In that same, slow, dizzying manner, I remembered. Eli... Klein.

Why should this matter? you ask. The wonderful answer: he is consuming less of my thoughts, slowly but surely. It's been happening a lot lately. I was walking home yesterday when it hit me: Eli. I had not thought of him this whole bus ride. I did not think of him last night, nor this morning until "the song" came on. In fact, when I "remember" to think of him, it takes awhile to think of WHY. Lately, when I see him on the playground, I don't even think of how cute he is. Nothing even comes to MIND when looking at him anymore. It's so wonderful! Slowly, I am getting over him. My broken heart is becoming mended, etc. And if this keeps up, he should be completely gone from my thoughts by at least summer, probably (much) sooner!

Happy, cheerful, and dancing with joy,
Vanessa :)